27 Nov 2015

Life lately

So, blogging has taken a bit of a back-seat over the last week or so, mainly due to the fact that life lately is very busy and stressful indeed. John and I have got quite a lot going on at the moment, so much to juggle and cram into a 24 hour day, and it didn’t help that Alex got ill on Tuesday and has been up and down ever since, with Becky having caught his cold / chest infection since yesterday, too, and been sent home from school – both in the week that I’m on print deadline, as usual. There is a pattern emerging!

Yet again, poor Alex hasn’t been sleeping well at all and has spent most nights either crying, coughing or making a momentary recovery at 2am at night and wanting to play, thanks to the powers that be Calpol. And that just after he was finally starting to sleep a little better and his night terrors were easing slightly, only coming on quite early on in the night. So sleep-wise, we’re back to square one, and I’m knackered, we all are. It’s taking all my energy to look after the kids and keep everything ticking over at work, everything else has to wait  – I’m not even going to comment on what my house looks like at the minute! 

Once again, I’ve been feeling exhausted with working mummy life. Just when you think you’ve got things under control and a routine down, bang, something goes awry and everything starts to crumble. When I came back to work after maternity leave, I didn’t think things would be so hard to juggle with two kids. After all, I had been perfectly capable doing it with Becky. I’m quite capable generally, thank you very much. Or am I? At least that’s what I always thought. That I could deal with any stress, and that nothing could throw me. But adding another little one to the mix is a whole different world, and sometimes, during weeks like this, I feel like I’m constantly chasing my own tail. Constantly failing. Never quite good enough.

At times like this, I really miss having family around who can help. If my Mum was nearby, it would be so much easier. She would love being called upon for some childcare, or even to give my house a once-over. Bless her! But hey ho, that’s not going to happen, so there’s no point musing over this. Our life is in the UK, my parents’ in Germany, so we have to make the best of the situation.

Speaking of my Mum - as if she had an inkling of what a crap week I’ve been having, yesterday a big parcel arrived from my parents, with presents for Becky and Alex in, as well as a huge box of Mum’s home-made Christmas biscuits – a family tradition. If there’s anything to cheer me up, it was that! Now I just need to make myself a nice brew, (try to) put my feet up and hope that the kids recover and we all get some sleep. Roll on the weekend!


  1. I feel your pain. We can just about cope when everything is running smoothly, but throw in a sick child and it's mayhem! You're really not along with this, I think we all go through it. Just keep going, next week will be better. Enjoy that brew (maybe have some wine too!) Jemma x

    1. Aw, thank you Jemma! That's made me feel better! I think I needed to hear that I'm not the only one and that it's normal to struggle, and not just me being rubbish! :-) Thanks so much for your kind words! x


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